breadth as an indicator of strength

I can point to all the obvious demarcations. 

I took your short words
the lack of question marks
as a lack of curiosity.

I mistook breadth for strength. 
is breadth an indicator of strength? 



when a thing breaks,
the interior becomes clear.

what I missed when it was solid,
is now apparent.




there is hint
the soft spots were there
always.




my enchantment,
fooled me.
my investment,
blurred the dents.

On Organization

“Technology should do the hard work, so people can get on with the things that make them happiest in life,” he said at Google I/O. “People are starving in the world, not because we don’t have enough food, but because we’re not organized. And computers are part of that. … Farming is great if that’s what you want to do, but not if that’s what you have to do.”

He says he’s uninterested in the stories about Google versus other companies (of course, everyone’s thinking Apple). Instead, he’s focused on building “things that don’t exist.” To him, the “important things aren’t zero-sum.” An example of one of these big visions is giving people’s commuting time back through self-driving cars.

- Larry Page, Google CEO

when it breaks.

I can point to all the obvious demarcations. 

I took your short words
and the lack of question marks
as a lack of curiosity

does breadth indicate strength? 
strength may not grow from breadth.

though.

I'm not sure my pointing would have realized anything different.
I think we would still be in the same spot. in the same roles. in the same patterns.
as it was, what I couldn't point to.
that I felt lonely sometimes right next to you.
that I felt I needed strong words to convey my meaning.
that our habits didn't seem to align.

I wanted you to support me and my ambitions
as I had tried to do for you.

the point in which you said not again to another full-fledged partnership.
the moment when I realized you knew nothing about my day-to-day life as I felt I knew about yours.

and then I heard you.
I had mistaken breadth for strength.
this exchange we have now, not perfect, stronger than before.

- - -

and when something breaks, its interior shows itself clearly. what was missed when it seemed to be solid is now apparent. perhaps its dents have always been there but hidden by its enchanting gleam.

I don't mean to break you.
I didn't know you thought we had something that could be broken.

we must risk delight

...
There is laughter
every day in the terrible streets of Calcutta,
and the women laugh in the cages of Bombay.
If we deny our happiness, resist satisfaction,
we lessen the importance of their deprivation.
We must risk delight. We can do without pleasure,
but not delight. Not enjoyment. We must have
the stubbornness to accept our gladness in the ruthless
furnace of this world. To make injustice the only
measure of our attention is to praise the Devil....
          
      - Jack Gilbert, A Brief for the Defense

Found at The Aesthetics of Joy.

our hunger

we are conquerers. of hearts. countries. persons. lives. objects. praises.

our appetite is whet with desire to point to our booty. is it a shame that we are so hungry?

growth

our heroes soar because we believe.
egos grow because we applaud.

that which is pure is unbounded.

one scale of intimacy